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Archive for October, 2011

Radio and stuff

Okay, so I do a lot of Twitter…a LOT! I’ve got a few people I tweet on a regular basis. One of them is a radio dj for my favorite radio station, David Dean on KMLE 108. The other is someone who’s known to all the dj at the station. They’ve taken to calling her TwitterKim. Well this week the guys who do the morning show are on vacation, so they’ve got David and Kim filing in. I’ve been making sure to listen the last few days. Well today, they asked me to call in about something they were talking about, which I did. I got to talk to them about costumes and such. It was pretty awesome, I have to admit. It made my morning. Okay, I’m done now. Oh, though if you tweet, feel free to follow me @thatdarnkat .

So The Goat’s weekly therapy ends next week. The week after that he turns 3 and he switches to the developmental preschool. I have to admit, I’m a bit nervous. It’s one thing for him to leave me and spend time with my parents, but these will be strangers who will have my baby boy for 2 1/2 hours 4 days a week. They’ll be picking him up and everything. I’ve stayed home since he was born. I had a seasonal job last year, but the Mr was here. I’m feeling anxious. I’m sure he’ll do great, he’s finally getting to the point where he’s starting to play with other kids. I know this will help him. I know this is what he needs, because it is continued therapy. I just can’t shut off that part of my brain that’s in an all out panic that my baby will be with someone else, where I’m not, for 10 hours each week. The upside to all this is, if I actually get the job with the Mr’s company, I’ll be a bit more prepared to leave him in full time daycare.

I know this post is all full of tangents and such, it’s kind of all over the place. Sorry about that.  I’m not feeling too good this morning and can’t keep my focus. Alright, I’m going to end it there before I make things worse.

A bit about me

Well hey there. I guess, before I start right in on the craziness that is my life, I should introduce myself. I’m Kat. I’m 26, a stay at home mom to 2 wonderful kids, and a wife. I’m going to school for nursing, though it’s a bit slow, lol. Like I said, I’ve got 2 kids, Princess, who will be 5 in less than a month, and Goat, who will be 3 in 2 weeks.  Goat is developmentally disabled, considered “at risk for a future diagnosis of autism”, and an all around confusing but charming boy.  Princess is what her name implies…a princess. Part of that, I’m sure, is she was the first granddaughter.  She also happened to be the first grandchild for all but one set of her grandparents. She’s not a brat (usually), but with young grandparents and some great-grandparents still hanging around, well, she’s been spoiled, that’s for sure.

The Mr and I are a bit of geeks, though he certainly out geeks me any day of the week. I grew up loving books, Buffy, Angel, X-Files, and Star Wars. When we got together, he showed me the joys of Star Trek. I’m a huge bookworm, I can finish a book in a day, if I don’t have anything else to do. My favorite author is Laurell K Hamilton, she writes some amazing vampire/were animal books (not that Twilight stuff, REAL vampires). If you’re not afraid of sex and violence, read her. I warn you, after book 10 of her Anita Blake series, the books get…sexually graphic, to say the least.

Anyway, this blog will serve as a way for me to vent, regarding the every day struggles of having one “normal” child and one “not so normal” child. I’ll also probably talk about the struggles of being a housewife while attending school. If I get a job in the next few months like I hope I will, the blog will include the struggles of balancing everything together. I’ll probably talk about books, movies, and tv shows. I can’t promise I’ll be funny (though according to some of my followers on Twitter, I’m funnier than I realize) or witty, or even have the best grammar, but I’ll be real. This is who I am, and I learned long ago not to try to be someone I’m not.

Monk-ish

Do you remember that show, Monk?  It was about a detective who had some major OCD issues?  Well, it seems my son, Goat, has developed some Monk-like behavior. We have to take stairs to get to our place and every time we come up the stairs, if he doesn’t get to touch every single rail on the banister, he has a serious melt down.  He’s developmentally disabled with some major speech development. The way he talks now is about 6-9 months behind where he should be for his age (3 is 2 weeks). He’s also got some other issues, including being at risk for being diagnosed as autistic later on.

This rail thing is new. Yeah, he’s always liked to touch each of the rails, but it was never a huge issue if he didn’t get to touch them all. This week it’s gotten worse. I don’t normally have an issue with him touching the rails as we climb, except for when we get to the landing before completing the stairs.  That railing is where trouble likes to hide.  It’s got as many rails as either of the actual stair parts, and he seems to slow down, like he wants to savor the landing.  The other day, I was holding his hand and had some groceries in my other hand.  When I wouldn’t let him touch all the rails, he grabbed on to the first one on the second part of the stairs and held on with all his strength (which is quite substantial for his age) while we kept climbing.  About 3 stairs up, his arm completely straight, and down he went, butt on the stairs, almost pulling me down with him.

He’s got a few other things, routines he has to do.  I’m not sure if this is all a part of some bigger diagnosis (like the possibility of autism) or if he’s got a bunch of smaller things going on (ADHD, OCD, who knows what else).  It’s frustrating.  I’ve got a daughter, Princess, who turns 5 in 3 weeks.  Out of the 2 of them, I honestly expected developmental problems from her.  She was 5 weeks early and under 4 lbs at birth.  I EXPECTED things like this with her, was warned over and over that it was a possibility by doctors.  Goat was born full term, no complications during pregnancy or birth.

I’m not going to lie, it’s very trying, frustrating, and a bit lonely. Goat doesn’t respond to discipline, nothing that we’ve tried.  So I’ve got 2 kids that I have to discipline in separate ways. I try not to make a big deal out of the differences, but there are some. Goat may be almost 3, but a lot of his behavior is that of a 2 year old. So while I know how I handled Princess when she was 3, I have to do it differently with Goat.  What works for one doesn’t work for the other.

On top of all this, right now I’m a stay at home mom, so I get no breaks, except for maybe once every 2 months, or so. I’m registered for classes for Spring semester. I’m looking forward to this is so many different ways. Not only does it keep me on the path to one day being a nurse on the labor and delivery unity (fingers crossed), but it will give me about 12 hours to myself each week.  Maybe then I’ll be able to start reclaiming some of my sanity.

By now, I’ve talked your ear off, I’m sure, so I’ll save the rest for another post.